Last night, I went to night classes because my friend Lisa was going with me. It was a really great experience for us both.
I have only been to night school twice before last night. Once on a part-timer's night and once not. On the nights the part-timers are there (Tues and Thurs), it's a pretty full room. On the other nights, there's only one first year.
I was the only one who hadn't done my Relationship with God talk, so I did. I felt so silly and self-conscious. It was awful. I knew I had heard from God on the subject, but just felt like I fumbled over every word and stuttered. I was miserable while talking.
After I sat down and I'm sure turned bright red, a girl behind me said that the Lord used something I talked about to set her free. Oh, how that changed everything. I felt so silly for being self-conscious. I should never be! I should only be God-conscious and no matter how it comes out, if I'm surrendered to Him, it will be the Word somebody needs for that moment. So what if I stutter a little bit? So what if I don't know that group? So what if whatever?
It is so selfish to be so worried about how my speeches come out. I had an awesome one on Wednesday, and felt like that one just didn't measure up. I am learning (praise God) that shyness is also pride. Pride is simply esteeming my own opinion of myself more highly than God's. Who am I to be shy and worried about how I look when God told me that He would give me the Word to speak? Who am I to esteem my opinion of myself more highly than God's opinion of me? That's pride just as much as if I were to think I was better than everybody else.
Oh, what you learn at Bible School!
Friday, February 25, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
My heart is so full!
Yesterday was an amazing morning at school! I don't know if I can get it all on here, but I'll never forget it!
On the drive in, I was just compelled by the Holy Spirit to just pray and praise the Lord. It was a wonderful trip in.
We started off with praise and worship. We hadn't had any in a while because we were behind on our scheduled classes since we'd missed four ice days. It was really awesome! Everybody was in one accord and the Spirit was manifested so clearly. There's really no way to describe it! He loves us sooo much! Goose got a message and interpretation from the Lord. He just told us He loves us sooo much and that He would be more and more reality to us each day. I'm so excited!
We spent some time in the Word after worship and just like always, the Lord gave me my 5 minute talk subject during that time. He has shown me and continues to show me that He will give me exactly what I need, right when I need it. He is always on time and always just enough. He is my Provider on every level - not just physical and emotional things, but every level. He provides the air I need to breathe just when I need to breathe it. He provides the money we need just when we need it. And He provides the Word I need, just when I need it. He provides!
Our talks were sooo good! We had several before break and the rest after. When Janis spoke, I saw in my spirit, a huge bird of prey - one I don't think I've seen before. It looked like either a hawk or an eagle, but was all white - pure white and gorgeous. I knew instantly that this bird symbolized the Father. He was regal and majestic looking. His eyes were amazing - they saw and took in everything. Beautiful. Then I saw that I am enfolded in His wing. When I hear scripture about being under the wing (can't think of an exact reference) before, I had pictured an extended wing and just simply being covered. But this was different. I was literally enfolded under His wing - not to sound yucky or anything, but in the armpit (haha) of the bird. Where as He stood there with His wings at rest at His side, you couldn't even see me. I felt the enfolding around me. I could feel the pulse of the bird and the warmth of the feathers - soft and downy in that vulnerable place on the bird. It was so amazing and beautiful. I could smell a sweet, wild fragrance. I can feel it again just in remembering right now. I could feel the muscles and the soft tissues. It was soft, warm and safe, but so, so strong.
Matthew spoke on loving man and not fearing him at all. Rick spoke on where our thoughts come from. Chima spoke on Psalms 91 and 23. Alan spoke on Proverbs and wisdom - he said the Lord had shown him a chapter where he could replace Vicky's name with Wisdom's to show what Vicky is to him in a picture from the Lord of his marriage. It was beautiful! James spoke of a vision he had the night before. He saw the Heavens open up and Jesus in the air. Then he saw what looked like shooting stars, shooting up to Jesus and the Lord showed him that it was the Rapture. He then saw darkness on the Earth and understood that it was because the Holy Spirit was taken out with the people. He said then that the Joy of the Lord overtook him right there in his bed and he spent some time just laughing deep belly laughs in the Lord's presence. He said that he was almost surprised that he didn't get overcome again because his Joy was so full. James also said that the Lord has shown him that we are going to be seeing manifestations of the Spirit in the part of the body that we are there at school. They are going to be very common and normal for us. Carolyn spoke on Proverbs. Kenny spoke on Jeremiah. At one point Kenny was so overcome by Love that he broke down in tears. Beautiful. Ruth spoke on Proverbs. Janis spoke of a vision the Lord had given her. She said she heard Him say clearly, "Speak my Word". She said she then saw an index card with the word "REALITY" on it, printed in black. She said she asked the Lord what this meant and He brought her to some scripture that showed her to interpret what He was saying to mean that she was to make the spoken Word her reality. Wow! The scripture was in Proverbs and it made a reference to a certain kind of tree that I can't remember right off. Janis had done a study on that tree and had found that it bloomed in late winter. She said she was symbolized by the tree - blooming late.
When I was preparing for my speech, I was looking through the Old Testament Survey IV notes that I had and the notes on Ecclesiastes just jumped off the page. He told me that was my speech. I kinda' argued with Him because I said that there were no scripture references. He said that was His Word for that time for that body and I needed to just trust Him and give it. Ok. I did. I spoke about the blessings He's manifested in our lives since school started. It was really good. I love the feeling I get when I know that the Lord is the one speaking out through me. It's amazing and I'm seeing it more and more. I am seeing it in conversations with other people and at school. I'm seeing fruits of the Spirit in my life, and I'm enjoying the work He does in me. There are prices to pay, make no mistake, and sometimes the emotions involved in those prices are difficult at best, but I'm so in love with the Lord that the cost is nothing in comparison.
Last to speak was Andrew. He spoke on us being the body and that we would be seeing manifestations of the Spirit, just like James said. He talked for a few minutes on some things the Lord has shown him about the people of the Lord being lights and shining brighter and brighter. He said when he sees each of us in the Spirit, he sees so much more than our flesh. He then went person to person and gave a word of exhortation over each one! He said Chima had great things in store for him. He said Janis was under the shadow of the wing of the Most High (my vision while she was speaking!). Matthew was Joy and jumping for Joy for the Lord. I don't remember Rick and Terry. James is a pillar. Ruth is the support of the pillar. Kenny was like a child and full of love for the Lord. Carolyn is a voice of praise. Kevin would love the unlovable and reach the unreachable. I am a blessing and blessed to be a blessing. I can't remember Julie. Alan is Wisdom and has Wisdom at his right hand (Vicky!). It was absolutely AMAZING! I can't wait for more.
Oh, when Kevin was speaking, I saw a vision of him and David standing shoulder to shoulder (touching shoulders) in equality. I am not sure exactly what it meant, but I believe that David and Kevin are linked together for something very important. After class, I told Kevin that we have our Bible study on Tuesdays and that I'd love for him and his wife to come. I'd love to get to know his wife! At that moment, I had a desire for nothing but getting to know her.
When I sat down, Kevin had tears in his eyes and told me that my message was for him. He told me a couple of times that it is for him. I have a feeling that there is something pretty significant that he and his wife are going through that we have a revelation on. I can't wait to get to know them!
On the way home, Sandra called to ask how class went. I told her everything I could remember and that I really just knew that the Spirit would do something amazing in the night classes also. I just knew it and He did. David and Sandra both went to night school last night. He came home bubbling over about the talks that they had and how awesome it was. He said that the last girl to speak spoke on "diverse tongues". I have never really thought much about what Paul said when he said he spoke with "diverse tongues". I'll have to get more into that when I receive a revelation of my own about it.
I can't wait to talk to Sandra!
On the drive in, I was just compelled by the Holy Spirit to just pray and praise the Lord. It was a wonderful trip in.
We started off with praise and worship. We hadn't had any in a while because we were behind on our scheduled classes since we'd missed four ice days. It was really awesome! Everybody was in one accord and the Spirit was manifested so clearly. There's really no way to describe it! He loves us sooo much! Goose got a message and interpretation from the Lord. He just told us He loves us sooo much and that He would be more and more reality to us each day. I'm so excited!
We spent some time in the Word after worship and just like always, the Lord gave me my 5 minute talk subject during that time. He has shown me and continues to show me that He will give me exactly what I need, right when I need it. He is always on time and always just enough. He is my Provider on every level - not just physical and emotional things, but every level. He provides the air I need to breathe just when I need to breathe it. He provides the money we need just when we need it. And He provides the Word I need, just when I need it. He provides!
Our talks were sooo good! We had several before break and the rest after. When Janis spoke, I saw in my spirit, a huge bird of prey - one I don't think I've seen before. It looked like either a hawk or an eagle, but was all white - pure white and gorgeous. I knew instantly that this bird symbolized the Father. He was regal and majestic looking. His eyes were amazing - they saw and took in everything. Beautiful. Then I saw that I am enfolded in His wing. When I hear scripture about being under the wing (can't think of an exact reference) before, I had pictured an extended wing and just simply being covered. But this was different. I was literally enfolded under His wing - not to sound yucky or anything, but in the armpit (haha) of the bird. Where as He stood there with His wings at rest at His side, you couldn't even see me. I felt the enfolding around me. I could feel the pulse of the bird and the warmth of the feathers - soft and downy in that vulnerable place on the bird. It was so amazing and beautiful. I could smell a sweet, wild fragrance. I can feel it again just in remembering right now. I could feel the muscles and the soft tissues. It was soft, warm and safe, but so, so strong.
Matthew spoke on loving man and not fearing him at all. Rick spoke on where our thoughts come from. Chima spoke on Psalms 91 and 23. Alan spoke on Proverbs and wisdom - he said the Lord had shown him a chapter where he could replace Vicky's name with Wisdom's to show what Vicky is to him in a picture from the Lord of his marriage. It was beautiful! James spoke of a vision he had the night before. He saw the Heavens open up and Jesus in the air. Then he saw what looked like shooting stars, shooting up to Jesus and the Lord showed him that it was the Rapture. He then saw darkness on the Earth and understood that it was because the Holy Spirit was taken out with the people. He said then that the Joy of the Lord overtook him right there in his bed and he spent some time just laughing deep belly laughs in the Lord's presence. He said that he was almost surprised that he didn't get overcome again because his Joy was so full. James also said that the Lord has shown him that we are going to be seeing manifestations of the Spirit in the part of the body that we are there at school. They are going to be very common and normal for us. Carolyn spoke on Proverbs. Kenny spoke on Jeremiah. At one point Kenny was so overcome by Love that he broke down in tears. Beautiful. Ruth spoke on Proverbs. Janis spoke of a vision the Lord had given her. She said she heard Him say clearly, "Speak my Word". She said she then saw an index card with the word "REALITY" on it, printed in black. She said she asked the Lord what this meant and He brought her to some scripture that showed her to interpret what He was saying to mean that she was to make the spoken Word her reality. Wow! The scripture was in Proverbs and it made a reference to a certain kind of tree that I can't remember right off. Janis had done a study on that tree and had found that it bloomed in late winter. She said she was symbolized by the tree - blooming late.
When I was preparing for my speech, I was looking through the Old Testament Survey IV notes that I had and the notes on Ecclesiastes just jumped off the page. He told me that was my speech. I kinda' argued with Him because I said that there were no scripture references. He said that was His Word for that time for that body and I needed to just trust Him and give it. Ok. I did. I spoke about the blessings He's manifested in our lives since school started. It was really good. I love the feeling I get when I know that the Lord is the one speaking out through me. It's amazing and I'm seeing it more and more. I am seeing it in conversations with other people and at school. I'm seeing fruits of the Spirit in my life, and I'm enjoying the work He does in me. There are prices to pay, make no mistake, and sometimes the emotions involved in those prices are difficult at best, but I'm so in love with the Lord that the cost is nothing in comparison.
Last to speak was Andrew. He spoke on us being the body and that we would be seeing manifestations of the Spirit, just like James said. He talked for a few minutes on some things the Lord has shown him about the people of the Lord being lights and shining brighter and brighter. He said when he sees each of us in the Spirit, he sees so much more than our flesh. He then went person to person and gave a word of exhortation over each one! He said Chima had great things in store for him. He said Janis was under the shadow of the wing of the Most High (my vision while she was speaking!). Matthew was Joy and jumping for Joy for the Lord. I don't remember Rick and Terry. James is a pillar. Ruth is the support of the pillar. Kenny was like a child and full of love for the Lord. Carolyn is a voice of praise. Kevin would love the unlovable and reach the unreachable. I am a blessing and blessed to be a blessing. I can't remember Julie. Alan is Wisdom and has Wisdom at his right hand (Vicky!). It was absolutely AMAZING! I can't wait for more.
Oh, when Kevin was speaking, I saw a vision of him and David standing shoulder to shoulder (touching shoulders) in equality. I am not sure exactly what it meant, but I believe that David and Kevin are linked together for something very important. After class, I told Kevin that we have our Bible study on Tuesdays and that I'd love for him and his wife to come. I'd love to get to know his wife! At that moment, I had a desire for nothing but getting to know her.
When I sat down, Kevin had tears in his eyes and told me that my message was for him. He told me a couple of times that it is for him. I have a feeling that there is something pretty significant that he and his wife are going through that we have a revelation on. I can't wait to get to know them!
On the way home, Sandra called to ask how class went. I told her everything I could remember and that I really just knew that the Spirit would do something amazing in the night classes also. I just knew it and He did. David and Sandra both went to night school last night. He came home bubbling over about the talks that they had and how awesome it was. He said that the last girl to speak spoke on "diverse tongues". I have never really thought much about what Paul said when he said he spoke with "diverse tongues". I'll have to get more into that when I receive a revelation of my own about it.
I can't wait to talk to Sandra!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Renewing my mind
God is renewing my mind to food! I had considered it before, but He really is. I saw it very clearly yesterday at Aldi.
When I shop now, I read everything. I put so many things back because they were so unhealthy - so many things that I've been buying for my family for a long time.
I think I'm about to end up at the Whole Foods Market for quite a few things. We are going to be moving away from alot of dairy products. We won't be consuming near the gluten we were.
I'm simply amazed.
I don't even know what week I'm on with this diet, but it's not really a diet anymore for me. It's now a way of life. It was the right time for me to be doing this.
This doesn't mean that my kids won't get to have pizza or ice cream from time to time, but they will definitely be the treats they are supposed to be and not the norm!
When I shop now, I read everything. I put so many things back because they were so unhealthy - so many things that I've been buying for my family for a long time.
I think I'm about to end up at the Whole Foods Market for quite a few things. We are going to be moving away from alot of dairy products. We won't be consuming near the gluten we were.
I'm simply amazed.
I don't even know what week I'm on with this diet, but it's not really a diet anymore for me. It's now a way of life. It was the right time for me to be doing this.
This doesn't mean that my kids won't get to have pizza or ice cream from time to time, but they will definitely be the treats they are supposed to be and not the norm!
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