It only took me 5 tries to remember my password.

I guess that means I should post more.  :-)  But it really hasn't been that long.

I don't think anybody I know really reads this.  I was concerned for a while because I had given this blog to Sandra.  I've checked my blog tracker and I don't think she's reading it.  I still don't feel completely comfortable with airing out all that happened.  I know what God has shown me and I'm ok with it.  I miss her, but I'm ok with it.

The other situation is Dena.  I don't think I'll go into a whole lot here, but I believe God's shown me that I need to withdraw a bit (it's been this way for a while now) and let her go do whatever she's going to do.  He showed me that love really does let go.  That doesn't mean I'm not there for her.  I am.  But not quite in the same capacity.  I was acting as a buffer for her and I can't be that.  I have to have clear boundaries for myself.  That's not to say I should be legalistic about anything, but continue to listen to the Spirit as to when/if we spend any time together.

Wow, this sounds all like a silly situation since I decided not to discuss it all here. 

On to other things...

I'm quitting my job.  There is not a realistic reason for me to stay after the kids are gone.  There will be nobody to babysit and Josh needs to be with his mother.  He will go to preschool in the Fall while I'm in school, and that will be fine.

David has a company here in town interested in him.  I'm excited about it.  I've been hopeful and excited about every opportunity that comes up, really. 

I sure do love that man.  He is so good to me.

Oh - a big thing God's been working with me on is relationships in general.  We had a marriage seminar at church and now Duane's preaching on the faces of Love.  Today was really good!  I love our church!  I'm sure there will be more about that at a later time.  I'm not sure I could be understandable right now. 

I'm going to bed....

School's out for the summer

Wasn't there a song like that? 

"Teacher, leave those kids alone...Hey, Teacher!  Leave those kids alone..." 

Are you singing it now?  If anybody actually reads this.  And it's totally ok if nobody ever does. 

We promoted.  I think I may have posted that already?  Maybe on my other blog.  This is still really my kinda' secret blog.  Well, Sandra had it, but I don't know if she ever even read it to begin with.  I really, really miss her.  I know that God showed me some things about the situation, but not knowing if she reads this or not, I can't put them here.  She is precious, though, and I believed a part of our family.  Maybe our paths will cross again on this side of eternity.  Who knows? 

I am way ready for David to find a different job.  I know it's best for me to be at home.  Things are really off kilter with me out of the house so much.

I talked to God about being a bit anxious when school let out that I would have difficulties keeping up with getting into the Word.  He showed me some things about the natural progression of relationships - especially mine and His.  I haven't had any problems to this point.  I love the Word!  I love spending time with Him.  I miss school and the fellowship there.  I know things will be completely different in the Fall.  Guner and Shirley will not be there anymore and that makes me rather sad.  I think most everybody from the first year will be back, along with some new from other places for the second year.  Summer school is in session right now and I plan to go up there tomorrow for class.  It will be good to see who's there.

Gonna get ready for work.