And came out on the other side actually good. I really enjoyed things once they settled down a bit.
I mean, Emily had a bit of a prima-donna attitude. I don't know if it's her age or not, but it's getting pretty bad. We had a small, contained blow-up. I didn't kill her, so I guess it ended well. I love Cody and Emily, but I am always thankful for the break of the time that they're both at their Mom's. That's just straight up honesty for ya'. You can't really know how it is to have step kids unless you have them. You have all the responsability of your own kids without the authority. It's difficult at best, but exceptionally rewarding at the same time. It's like the thing you have to work so hard at that it's much sweeter when there're good times and things. Well, enough of that - I think the subject of step children could be a daily post of it's own.
Greg and Andrea stayed a while after everybody else left and I'm so glad they did. I really, really enjoyed them. And Joshua loves, loves, loves Paige. He misses her. They are talking about moving here when he gets out and if he can get out early, coming on this way. I would so love to have them here.
That's enough for now.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Sunday, July 3, 2011
I'm trying.
Our house is full of people. 16 people to be exact. And they're all staying here. I love it and hate it all at the same time. It' hard for me when somebody stays here because I'm a very "in it's place" kind of person. NOTHING is "in it's place". I'm trying. Lord knows I'm trying. I'm trying to just not pay attention when somebody spills a whole Dr. Pepper on the floor. Or I pick a for real (HUGE) boogar off the wall. No kidding. And there's trash everywhere. It's awful. But, I can spend my time walking around cleaning everything up over and over, or I can sit here and blog about it and let everybody else just enjoy themselves with no pressure from me. I've come a long way. A really long way. There was a time when I wouldn't even be able to realistically even see the option of sitting here blogging about it and just leaving it all alone.
David's family is so very different from mine. I mean, I know that they're now my family too, but you know. I'm just stressed out a bit. And I'm frustrated with David.
David's family is so very different from mine. I mean, I know that they're now my family too, but you know. I'm just stressed out a bit. And I'm frustrated with David.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
It only took me 5 tries to remember my password.
I guess that means I should post more. :-) But it really hasn't been that long.
I don't think anybody I know really reads this. I was concerned for a while because I had given this blog to Sandra. I've checked my blog tracker and I don't think she's reading it. I still don't feel completely comfortable with airing out all that happened. I know what God has shown me and I'm ok with it. I miss her, but I'm ok with it.
The other situation is Dena. I don't think I'll go into a whole lot here, but I believe God's shown me that I need to withdraw a bit (it's been this way for a while now) and let her go do whatever she's going to do. He showed me that love really does let go. That doesn't mean I'm not there for her. I am. But not quite in the same capacity. I was acting as a buffer for her and I can't be that. I have to have clear boundaries for myself. That's not to say I should be legalistic about anything, but continue to listen to the Spirit as to when/if we spend any time together.
Wow, this sounds all like a silly situation since I decided not to discuss it all here.
On to other things...
I'm quitting my job. There is not a realistic reason for me to stay after the kids are gone. There will be nobody to babysit and Josh needs to be with his mother. He will go to preschool in the Fall while I'm in school, and that will be fine.
David has a company here in town interested in him. I'm excited about it. I've been hopeful and excited about every opportunity that comes up, really.
I sure do love that man. He is so good to me.
Oh - a big thing God's been working with me on is relationships in general. We had a marriage seminar at church and now Duane's preaching on the faces of Love. Today was really good! I love our church! I'm sure there will be more about that at a later time. I'm not sure I could be understandable right now.
I'm going to bed....
I don't think anybody I know really reads this. I was concerned for a while because I had given this blog to Sandra. I've checked my blog tracker and I don't think she's reading it. I still don't feel completely comfortable with airing out all that happened. I know what God has shown me and I'm ok with it. I miss her, but I'm ok with it.
The other situation is Dena. I don't think I'll go into a whole lot here, but I believe God's shown me that I need to withdraw a bit (it's been this way for a while now) and let her go do whatever she's going to do. He showed me that love really does let go. That doesn't mean I'm not there for her. I am. But not quite in the same capacity. I was acting as a buffer for her and I can't be that. I have to have clear boundaries for myself. That's not to say I should be legalistic about anything, but continue to listen to the Spirit as to when/if we spend any time together.
Wow, this sounds all like a silly situation since I decided not to discuss it all here.
On to other things...
I'm quitting my job. There is not a realistic reason for me to stay after the kids are gone. There will be nobody to babysit and Josh needs to be with his mother. He will go to preschool in the Fall while I'm in school, and that will be fine.
David has a company here in town interested in him. I'm excited about it. I've been hopeful and excited about every opportunity that comes up, really.
I sure do love that man. He is so good to me.
Oh - a big thing God's been working with me on is relationships in general. We had a marriage seminar at church and now Duane's preaching on the faces of Love. Today was really good! I love our church! I'm sure there will be more about that at a later time. I'm not sure I could be understandable right now.
I'm going to bed....
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
School's out for the summer
Wasn't there a song like that?
"Teacher, leave those kids alone...Hey, Teacher! Leave those kids alone..."
Are you singing it now? If anybody actually reads this. And it's totally ok if nobody ever does.
We promoted. I think I may have posted that already? Maybe on my other blog. This is still really my kinda' secret blog. Well, Sandra had it, but I don't know if she ever even read it to begin with. I really, really miss her. I know that God showed me some things about the situation, but not knowing if she reads this or not, I can't put them here. She is precious, though, and I believed a part of our family. Maybe our paths will cross again on this side of eternity. Who knows?
I am way ready for David to find a different job. I know it's best for me to be at home. Things are really off kilter with me out of the house so much.
I talked to God about being a bit anxious when school let out that I would have difficulties keeping up with getting into the Word. He showed me some things about the natural progression of relationships - especially mine and His. I haven't had any problems to this point. I love the Word! I love spending time with Him. I miss school and the fellowship there. I know things will be completely different in the Fall. Guner and Shirley will not be there anymore and that makes me rather sad. I think most everybody from the first year will be back, along with some new from other places for the second year. Summer school is in session right now and I plan to go up there tomorrow for class. It will be good to see who's there.
Gonna get ready for work.
"Teacher, leave those kids alone...Hey, Teacher! Leave those kids alone..."
Are you singing it now? If anybody actually reads this. And it's totally ok if nobody ever does.
We promoted. I think I may have posted that already? Maybe on my other blog. This is still really my kinda' secret blog. Well, Sandra had it, but I don't know if she ever even read it to begin with. I really, really miss her. I know that God showed me some things about the situation, but not knowing if she reads this or not, I can't put them here. She is precious, though, and I believed a part of our family. Maybe our paths will cross again on this side of eternity. Who knows?
I am way ready for David to find a different job. I know it's best for me to be at home. Things are really off kilter with me out of the house so much.
I talked to God about being a bit anxious when school let out that I would have difficulties keeping up with getting into the Word. He showed me some things about the natural progression of relationships - especially mine and His. I haven't had any problems to this point. I love the Word! I love spending time with Him. I miss school and the fellowship there. I know things will be completely different in the Fall. Guner and Shirley will not be there anymore and that makes me rather sad. I think most everybody from the first year will be back, along with some new from other places for the second year. Summer school is in session right now and I plan to go up there tomorrow for class. It will be good to see who's there.
Gonna get ready for work.
Monday, May 30, 2011
hmmm....
hmmm....
I do not know what is going on with my friend. Well, I guess I do, but I don't at the same time. There has been so much go on and then so much not go on at the same time lately. We haven't really talked in a long time. There is really nothing to say. Not really. The last we really talked about it, we didn't really talk about it. It was more like she texted me a message that said she was fine. Which she's not fine. Not at all. She tried to convince me of it, but she wasn't the One who showed me that she wasn't fine, so she isn't the One who can convince me that she is. She said she was doing "things" that I wouldn't approve of, but that she was "fine". I don't think so. It's not about me approving or not approving. It's not my place to approve or not approve. Everything comes down to a heart condition. Everything.
hmmm....
I do not know what is going on with my friend. Well, I guess I do, but I don't at the same time. There has been so much go on and then so much not go on at the same time lately. We haven't really talked in a long time. There is really nothing to say. Not really. The last we really talked about it, we didn't really talk about it. It was more like she texted me a message that said she was fine. Which she's not fine. Not at all. She tried to convince me of it, but she wasn't the One who showed me that she wasn't fine, so she isn't the One who can convince me that she is. She said she was doing "things" that I wouldn't approve of, but that she was "fine". I don't think so. It's not about me approving or not approving. It's not my place to approve or not approve. Everything comes down to a heart condition. Everything.
hmmm....
Thursday, April 28, 2011
My other blog
I wrote a post there that I'll hijack and put here. I posted a link on Facebook to it and had an email that I responded to. I want to keep all of it, so will put it all here.
Here is the post from the other blog:
Here is the post from the other blog:
God's Sovereignty
This has been on my heart alot lately. I've been reading blogs that make statements over and over that they don't know why God allows this or that. This is a misunderstanding of God's sovereignty. Is God sovereign? Absolutely. Does mainstream Christianity misunderstand His sovereignty? Absolutely. It breaks my heart to hear God indirectly blamed for "allowing" things that happen to happen. He does not. It is not His will for a baby to die. It's not His will for bad things to happen. Tornadoes are not His will. Tsunamis are not His will. Things are not His will simply because they happen. It makes me so sad when people think that a person is put through horrible things so that they can learn something, or so that somebody else can learn something. Would you make something horrible happen to your child just so they could learn something? Absolutely not. God is no child abuser either.
Being sovereign means to have supreme rank or authority. Yes, God is sovereign. But being in supreme rank or authority does not mean that you are in control of everything. Does anything happen that God does not know happens? Absolutely not. He knows all. Just because He knows something happens does not mean He caused it by allowing it. Does it happen outside of His will? Lots of things do. The Bible clearly states that it is His will that none should perish, but all should be brought to repentance. We know this does not always happen, so in following this line of thinking - not all things that are God's will happen.
I used to struggle with this. And struggle. And stuggle. I was taught that because God is "sovereign", and nothing happens that He doesn't know, inadvertantly, His will is always played out. It is such a hard concept to grasp when most people are filled to overflowing with bad doctrine. I was there. I know how hard it is to renew your mind in mainstream churches.
We live in a fallen world. Some things just happen because of that. We also have an enemy who is here to steal, kill and destroy. Some things happen because of that. We live in ignorance. Some things happen because of that. We are responsible for so much more than we really know. We have authority over so much more than we understand.
When God placed man in the Garden, He gave man authority over the Earth. He never retracted that authority. God is sovereign, yes, but man has been given the authority to subdue the Earth. When man was deceived and sinned, he gave satan a right to some of that authority. When Jesus rose from the grave, He took back all authority in Heaven and Earth. When Jesus left the Earth, He gave that authority back to those who are in Him. By the power of the Holy Spirit, we are restored to our authority, but only in Christ.
Being sovereign means to have supreme rank or authority. Yes, God is sovereign. But being in supreme rank or authority does not mean that you are in control of everything. Does anything happen that God does not know happens? Absolutely not. He knows all. Just because He knows something happens does not mean He caused it by allowing it. Does it happen outside of His will? Lots of things do. The Bible clearly states that it is His will that none should perish, but all should be brought to repentance. We know this does not always happen, so in following this line of thinking - not all things that are God's will happen.
I used to struggle with this. And struggle. And stuggle. I was taught that because God is "sovereign", and nothing happens that He doesn't know, inadvertantly, His will is always played out. It is such a hard concept to grasp when most people are filled to overflowing with bad doctrine. I was there. I know how hard it is to renew your mind in mainstream churches.
We live in a fallen world. Some things just happen because of that. We also have an enemy who is here to steal, kill and destroy. Some things happen because of that. We live in ignorance. Some things happen because of that. We are responsible for so much more than we really know. We have authority over so much more than we understand.
When God placed man in the Garden, He gave man authority over the Earth. He never retracted that authority. God is sovereign, yes, but man has been given the authority to subdue the Earth. When man was deceived and sinned, he gave satan a right to some of that authority. When Jesus rose from the grave, He took back all authority in Heaven and Earth. When Jesus left the Earth, He gave that authority back to those who are in Him. By the power of the Holy Spirit, we are restored to our authority, but only in Christ.
Here is the email that was sent questioning:
Your blog
Katie, I just read your blog. You worded it well. I just have a few questiond for you? What verses in the Bible did you see that determined your thoughts?
Consider this verse, God has absolute rule over creation as King and total control and determination over all that happens.
“His dominion is an everlasting dominion, and his kingdom endures from generation to generation; all the inhabitants of the earth are accounted as nothing, and he does according to his will among the host of heaven and among the inhabitants of the earth; and none can stay his hand or say to him, ‘What have you done?’” (Dan. 4:34–35) Also look into these verses, 1 Kings 12:15; 1 Chron. 29:11–13; Ps. 22:28; 24:1; 47:7–9; 103:19; Prov. 16:19, 21, 33; Dan. 4:25; 7:1–28; 12:1–13; Matt. 6:13; 10:29; Acts 17:26; Eph. 1:11; 1 Tim. 6:15; James 1:13–15.
Keep digging into the Word Katie. Keep up the good work!
Kevin
Consider this verse, God has absolute rule over creation as King and total control and determination over all that happens.
“His dominion is an everlasting dominion, and his kingdom endures from generation to generation; all the inhabitants of the earth are accounted as nothing, and he does according to his will among the host of heaven and among the inhabitants of the earth; and none can stay his hand or say to him, ‘What have you done?’” (Dan. 4:34–35) Also look into these verses, 1 Kings 12:15; 1 Chron. 29:11–13; Ps. 22:28; 24:1; 47:7–9; 103:19; Prov. 16:19, 21, 33; Dan. 4:25; 7:1–28; 12:1–13; Matt. 6:13; 10:29; Acts 17:26; Eph. 1:11; 1 Tim. 6:15; James 1:13–15.
Keep digging into the Word Katie. Keep up the good work!
Kevin
Here is my response email:
Hey, Kevin!
How are you guys? I haven't gotten to talk to Mary in forever. I just see FB updates and such. Your girls are beautiful, as always.
I'm not avoiding your question, I just don't have time right now to dig everything out and go verse by verse. Something to think about, though...and I'm not the most articulate, but I'm trying.
Please see my heart, we are brethren. We agree on the most important doctrine, and that is Jesus - who He is, why He came and the circumstances around that. Everything else is up for discussion, but not Jesus. Because of Him, we can discuss, as family, things like this. :-)
When we read scripture, it is imperative to consider who wrote it, under what circumstances, and when. Many men in the Old Testament, when writing the books, did not have the amount of revelation that we can have now through the Holy Spirit. You can actually see, through time, that the amount of revelation grew progressively. Job did not have near the revelation that David did. Both spoke of God's nature, but neither could have the grasp that you or I can have through the Holy Spirit. The writers of the Old Testament's personalities came through in their writings, just like ours do. We, of course, have seen the full revelation of who God is in Jesus. He, Himself said that He only did what He saw the Father do. We can go straight to Him to see the TRUE nature of God.
Please, please, please don't think I'm downing or disrespecting the Old Testament. I'm certainly not! All scripture is given to us for learning and reproof. We are to learn from it all. Every bit of it is holy and God-breathed, but not every single bit of it describes God's nature.
I grew up thinking that when somebody became sick, say with cancer or something and God didn't heal them, that it must have been God's will for that person to have cancer. This is so very wrong. It's the same with natural disasters. I always thought that ultimately they were God's judgement or will for them to happen because if they weren't, why didn't he stop them? I thought everything that happened was His will simply by process of elmination. He must have wanted it or He would have stopped it and it wouldn't have happened. This is also wrong.
When we look to the example of Jesus - we can see that God does not allow sickness on anybody. Jesus healed all who He came into contact with, with the exception of those who had unbelief (as in the examples of people in His hometown where He could not - and that's a key - He could not - it was His will to heal, but He could not because of their unbelief). There is not one case recorded of Jesus ever putting any sickness or disease on anybody. So why would I ever think it's God's will for somebody to be sick in any instance? Just because it happens, doesn't mean it's God's will. Looking at Jesus and His life and what's recorded in the Gospels as to why He couldn't heal some people (their unbelief) - it would require us to ask why all can't be healed today if it's God's will for all to be. Unbelief. Which opens a new can of worm...
What about the people who we know have faith? Why aren't they healed if it's God's will to heal all and all aren't? When Jesus came down from the mount of transfiguration, He was brought the man with the boy who the disciples couldn't heal. He didn't deal directly with the boy immediately. He dealt with the boy's father. It was their unbelief that was cited as the problem. The man said that he believed, but he needed Jesus to help his unbelief. Jesus didn't correct him and tell him that he couldn't have belief and unbelief at the same time. Faith and unbelief are two separate things and they can exist in the same person at the same time.
It's like having a cart that you are trying to get somewhere. The cart is the healing in this case. You can have a horse (faith) tied to one side and if you get him to pull it, the cart will move. But if you hook another horse to the directly opposite side of the cart (unbelief) and have both pulling at the same time, your cart's going nowhere. Jesus told him that this kind came out by prayer and fasting. Jesus was talking about the unbelief coming out, not the demon. There is not a demon out there who is not subject to Jesus' name. His name is higher than all. He couldn't have been talking about the demon coming out by prayer and fasting. The only thing that's affected by prayer and fasting is our sensitivity to God. When Jesus was saying to fast and pray, He was saying to starve our unbelief. He was giving them a tool to tip the scales toward the side of belief.
I had a very hard time with this because it seems that it puts so much responsability on us. It does. Jesus never sugar-coated things to His disciples. He rebuked them for their unbelief so many times. He made a big deal about it. When He left, He left them with instructions to make disciples. He empowered them with the Holy Spirit. He said it would be better that He went to the Father. He gave us the tools to overcome the unbelief and do the works that He did, and greater. He gave us the authority to do everything He did - heal the sick, raise the dead, give sight to the blind, set the captives free. Everything. And it is our responsability.
I don't understand it all for sure. I am growing every day in revelation of the nature of God and my relationship with Him. I hope you can see my heart in typing all of this out. I know it's not all-inclusive and it doesn't even scratch the surface of all that I want to be able to say to explain.
As for the natural disasters. I mentioned before that I always thought of these as judgment and ultimately God's will. That's not true either. God poured out all His wrath on Jesus for ALL sins - past, present and future. He's not up there passing judgment anymore at all. God doesn't even get in a bad mood anymore. Hebrews says that Jesus was the propitiation for all sin for all time. He sat down at the right hand of the Father because it was ALL paid for. He paid for ALL the sins of the world - even the ones that the people don't repent over. The only sin at all that sends anybody to hell is not accepting Christ. Every other sin (even of the unbeliever) is paid for. So, He cannot send natural disasters as judgment without saying to Jesus that Jesus didn't do enough.
There are so many things that happen in this world just because it's a fallen place. It has degenerated since the fall of man, and at a steady pace. I believe we'll see an acceleration of these as we approach the end times as we are living in the last days.
I hope that gives you something to think about.
Love you guys,
Katie
How are you guys? I haven't gotten to talk to Mary in forever. I just see FB updates and such. Your girls are beautiful, as always.
I'm not avoiding your question, I just don't have time right now to dig everything out and go verse by verse. Something to think about, though...and I'm not the most articulate, but I'm trying.
Please see my heart, we are brethren. We agree on the most important doctrine, and that is Jesus - who He is, why He came and the circumstances around that. Everything else is up for discussion, but not Jesus. Because of Him, we can discuss, as family, things like this. :-)
When we read scripture, it is imperative to consider who wrote it, under what circumstances, and when. Many men in the Old Testament, when writing the books, did not have the amount of revelation that we can have now through the Holy Spirit. You can actually see, through time, that the amount of revelation grew progressively. Job did not have near the revelation that David did. Both spoke of God's nature, but neither could have the grasp that you or I can have through the Holy Spirit. The writers of the Old Testament's personalities came through in their writings, just like ours do. We, of course, have seen the full revelation of who God is in Jesus. He, Himself said that He only did what He saw the Father do. We can go straight to Him to see the TRUE nature of God.
Please, please, please don't think I'm downing or disrespecting the Old Testament. I'm certainly not! All scripture is given to us for learning and reproof. We are to learn from it all. Every bit of it is holy and God-breathed, but not every single bit of it describes God's nature.
I grew up thinking that when somebody became sick, say with cancer or something and God didn't heal them, that it must have been God's will for that person to have cancer. This is so very wrong. It's the same with natural disasters. I always thought that ultimately they were God's judgement or will for them to happen because if they weren't, why didn't he stop them? I thought everything that happened was His will simply by process of elmination. He must have wanted it or He would have stopped it and it wouldn't have happened. This is also wrong.
When we look to the example of Jesus - we can see that God does not allow sickness on anybody. Jesus healed all who He came into contact with, with the exception of those who had unbelief (as in the examples of people in His hometown where He could not - and that's a key - He could not - it was His will to heal, but He could not because of their unbelief). There is not one case recorded of Jesus ever putting any sickness or disease on anybody. So why would I ever think it's God's will for somebody to be sick in any instance? Just because it happens, doesn't mean it's God's will. Looking at Jesus and His life and what's recorded in the Gospels as to why He couldn't heal some people (their unbelief) - it would require us to ask why all can't be healed today if it's God's will for all to be. Unbelief. Which opens a new can of worm...
What about the people who we know have faith? Why aren't they healed if it's God's will to heal all and all aren't? When Jesus came down from the mount of transfiguration, He was brought the man with the boy who the disciples couldn't heal. He didn't deal directly with the boy immediately. He dealt with the boy's father. It was their unbelief that was cited as the problem. The man said that he believed, but he needed Jesus to help his unbelief. Jesus didn't correct him and tell him that he couldn't have belief and unbelief at the same time. Faith and unbelief are two separate things and they can exist in the same person at the same time.
It's like having a cart that you are trying to get somewhere. The cart is the healing in this case. You can have a horse (faith) tied to one side and if you get him to pull it, the cart will move. But if you hook another horse to the directly opposite side of the cart (unbelief) and have both pulling at the same time, your cart's going nowhere. Jesus told him that this kind came out by prayer and fasting. Jesus was talking about the unbelief coming out, not the demon. There is not a demon out there who is not subject to Jesus' name. His name is higher than all. He couldn't have been talking about the demon coming out by prayer and fasting. The only thing that's affected by prayer and fasting is our sensitivity to God. When Jesus was saying to fast and pray, He was saying to starve our unbelief. He was giving them a tool to tip the scales toward the side of belief.
I had a very hard time with this because it seems that it puts so much responsability on us. It does. Jesus never sugar-coated things to His disciples. He rebuked them for their unbelief so many times. He made a big deal about it. When He left, He left them with instructions to make disciples. He empowered them with the Holy Spirit. He said it would be better that He went to the Father. He gave us the tools to overcome the unbelief and do the works that He did, and greater. He gave us the authority to do everything He did - heal the sick, raise the dead, give sight to the blind, set the captives free. Everything. And it is our responsability.
I don't understand it all for sure. I am growing every day in revelation of the nature of God and my relationship with Him. I hope you can see my heart in typing all of this out. I know it's not all-inclusive and it doesn't even scratch the surface of all that I want to be able to say to explain.
As for the natural disasters. I mentioned before that I always thought of these as judgment and ultimately God's will. That's not true either. God poured out all His wrath on Jesus for ALL sins - past, present and future. He's not up there passing judgment anymore at all. God doesn't even get in a bad mood anymore. Hebrews says that Jesus was the propitiation for all sin for all time. He sat down at the right hand of the Father because it was ALL paid for. He paid for ALL the sins of the world - even the ones that the people don't repent over. The only sin at all that sends anybody to hell is not accepting Christ. Every other sin (even of the unbeliever) is paid for. So, He cannot send natural disasters as judgment without saying to Jesus that Jesus didn't do enough.
There are so many things that happen in this world just because it's a fallen place. It has degenerated since the fall of man, and at a steady pace. I believe we'll see an acceleration of these as we approach the end times as we are living in the last days.
I hope that gives you something to think about.
Love you guys,
Katie
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
It's been a while...
All is not always roses and sunshine at Bible School. Maybe that should have been my title. I'm not being a downer at all about it. It's definitely up there as one of the most wonderful experiences of my life - and I'm not even a third of the way done yet! I guess the point is simply that with everything, there is a price. With every revelation of the Word that is given, it is tested and that testing is tough sometimes. And sometimes, people do things you don't understand. But each test and situation is a learning experience and a life lesson.
One of the reasons I've kinda' avoided blogging here is Sandra. I haven't felt the freedom to write openly about things because I gave her the blog a couple of months ago and don't know if she still does or ever read it. I don't feel good about airing anything out here, but it's just enough to say that she left school without an explanation to me, which I didn't understand, but that was her choice. I also learned the lesson of keeping this place private to me so that it can (in every other area) still be a place to honestly an openly journal my experience. It's rather a shame because there are so many life lessons that I learned through that experience that would be of value to have chronicled.
David got a job at Target. He loves it and I'm so very happy for him. He's cashiering and has said that it's really good for him because he is having to learn how to make small-talk. He is an amazing husband and father and I don't know where in the world I'd be without him!
Dena is living 15 minutes from me now. That's so exciting! This is the closest proximity we've been to each other in years and it's fantastic! I love her and her girls so very much.
I spent Spring Break in Missouri with my grandparents. Just me and Josh and them. It was sooo nice. I took Joshua to a circus in West Plains and we both loved it so much! He is such a good kid.
The Saturday that I drove up there, we had a women's brunch/meeting at church. When I heard it advertised, the Holy Spirit told me that I need to be there. Ok. Those get-togethers are usually not really my thing, but He's been working with me on that because I do love the women. I think my problem is really not the get-together, it's more that I don't like the drama that I usually associate with a women's group. I'm beginning to realize that this group is pretty low-key on the drama. It is there, yes, but not like your typical group. He's awakening a desire and love for the women of our church in me. I think something's going on there...
Anyway, one of the speakers was the director from the crisis pregnancy center in Sherman. When I figured this out, the Holy Spirit said that this was why I was there. During a break, I was browsing the table that she had set up. She happened to be right there, and we chatted a bit. She told me she was looking for somebody to lead the Forgiven and Set Free Bible study that they offer. I got excited about that and started thinking about it. I told her I'd been through it and was set free.
She did her talk and while she was talking, I was praying for the Lord to show me if this was truly for me or simply an emotional response. He told me that His gifts and callings are without repentance and that He had called me to that already. I spoke to her again and filled out the info she needed. I told her I'd be out of town for a week and would call her when I was back. I did call, but left a message since she was out of town the following week. Funny.
Anyway, in the meantime, it popped in my head that Dena really should probably go through the study. Just after that, Dena and I were chatting for a minute and I told her that I might be doing that study through the center and she said that she wanted me to do it with her. How awesome is it when the Holy Spirit confirms what He's told you through another person.
We started the study Saturday night. And now, Tracey wants to come join it. I am so excited for them. I'm not excited for the difficulties they have coming, but where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom! I'm excited to witness their coming into that freedom!
What a mighty God we serve! What a mighty God we serve! Angels bow before Him, Heaven and Earth adore Him. What a mighty God we serve!
One of the reasons I've kinda' avoided blogging here is Sandra. I haven't felt the freedom to write openly about things because I gave her the blog a couple of months ago and don't know if she still does or ever read it. I don't feel good about airing anything out here, but it's just enough to say that she left school without an explanation to me, which I didn't understand, but that was her choice. I also learned the lesson of keeping this place private to me so that it can (in every other area) still be a place to honestly an openly journal my experience. It's rather a shame because there are so many life lessons that I learned through that experience that would be of value to have chronicled.
David got a job at Target. He loves it and I'm so very happy for him. He's cashiering and has said that it's really good for him because he is having to learn how to make small-talk. He is an amazing husband and father and I don't know where in the world I'd be without him!
Dena is living 15 minutes from me now. That's so exciting! This is the closest proximity we've been to each other in years and it's fantastic! I love her and her girls so very much.
I spent Spring Break in Missouri with my grandparents. Just me and Josh and them. It was sooo nice. I took Joshua to a circus in West Plains and we both loved it so much! He is such a good kid.
The Saturday that I drove up there, we had a women's brunch/meeting at church. When I heard it advertised, the Holy Spirit told me that I need to be there. Ok. Those get-togethers are usually not really my thing, but He's been working with me on that because I do love the women. I think my problem is really not the get-together, it's more that I don't like the drama that I usually associate with a women's group. I'm beginning to realize that this group is pretty low-key on the drama. It is there, yes, but not like your typical group. He's awakening a desire and love for the women of our church in me. I think something's going on there...
Anyway, one of the speakers was the director from the crisis pregnancy center in Sherman. When I figured this out, the Holy Spirit said that this was why I was there. During a break, I was browsing the table that she had set up. She happened to be right there, and we chatted a bit. She told me she was looking for somebody to lead the Forgiven and Set Free Bible study that they offer. I got excited about that and started thinking about it. I told her I'd been through it and was set free.
She did her talk and while she was talking, I was praying for the Lord to show me if this was truly for me or simply an emotional response. He told me that His gifts and callings are without repentance and that He had called me to that already. I spoke to her again and filled out the info she needed. I told her I'd be out of town for a week and would call her when I was back. I did call, but left a message since she was out of town the following week. Funny.
Anyway, in the meantime, it popped in my head that Dena really should probably go through the study. Just after that, Dena and I were chatting for a minute and I told her that I might be doing that study through the center and she said that she wanted me to do it with her. How awesome is it when the Holy Spirit confirms what He's told you through another person.
We started the study Saturday night. And now, Tracey wants to come join it. I am so excited for them. I'm not excited for the difficulties they have coming, but where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom! I'm excited to witness their coming into that freedom!
What a mighty God we serve! What a mighty God we serve! Angels bow before Him, Heaven and Earth adore Him. What a mighty God we serve!
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